The distance between us
may be far or
closer than expected
My thoughts go out to you
In this uncertain world
where everything is transient yet
One thing remains true
My feelings for you.

Dear one,
You are loved, more
than you know
Your imperfections are perfect
They are the reflections of
your beautiful soul
I see them in you daily
You need not begrudge others
That weakness you feel or the
pain in your heart
signs of adulthood
you are embarking
spread your wings high and
fly; your moment is
about to begin.

dedicated to my followers 

At this moment,
I need you more 
than life itself.
All these thoughts
running through my head,
I’m scared and so alone;
All these doubts I have inside
When will it all go away?

Right here, right now,
we have to make a 
decision; I can’t
face another sleepless
night alone.

Tell me something,
anything; lie to
me if you have to;
Just make this fear stop
me from living,
from going on.

the harsh buzz from the alarm
awakens me
soft light filters through
I slowly exhale, open my eyes
it’s another day
you’re still asleep
the only sound in this room
is the sound of your harsh breathing
did you dream of me
like I dreamed of you
last night?
I’m so tempted
to slide back into the warm sheets
I’d rather spend my day
with you
I breathe in your scent
my fuel for the day
I’m off to work again. 

I know the feeling
of being compared
and coming out
as the Loser.
I know the feeling
of being left out
unappreciated and
unwanted.
Nothing satisfies them
nothing pleases them
nothing makes them happy
no matter what I say or do
nothing is right
it’s always wrong.
I’m never going to be
good enough
smart enough or
pretty enough for
you. 

The sweet words
you once had
spoken softly;
you whispered to me
in the silence of the night,
now turn sour
with your lies so
spoken sweetly.
Honey dripped,
poison-tinged words
Truth too
distorted to
be the truth
anymore;
you had
spoken sweetly.

I am lost
in this endless maze,
I am searching
for the door.
I never expected you
to walk beside me;
Your roads are
so different, your
thoughts, your views
make you unique.
I am intrigued, and
so I walk beside you,
while you seek
for the door
out from this endless maze
we call Life.

the ugly monster
eats me from within
heart, lungs, intestines
crawling up and emerging
this pain I cannot contain
from the world, I keep
my ugly monster
the face behind the mask
darkness threatens
starting to boil over
how do you embrace
something so ugly
someone like me? 

I seek your warmth
beneath this sea of blankets
you lie by my side
arms and legs entangled
in each other
the soft touch of your lips
your breath tickles my face
your heart beats beneath my palm
your smooth skin and rough hands
your warmth surrounds me
as I sleep and dream of
you. 

These feelings so personal
Cannot be expressed 
Can’t be measured
Words are so inadequate and small
When I see you
Your mind in a cloud of confusion
Your eyes tell a story
That your mouth can’t convey
While I sit beside you
Your prone form so frail beneath the white sheets
All I can do is be there for you
and my mouth and heart; constantly
pray…over and over again. 
How I want you to know,
To understand, that you 
are not fighting this battle alone.

I am who I am
I do not apologize for it
My actions need no explanations
My flesh is weak
Yet my spirit is strong
My senses are dull
Yet my wit cuts like a knife
I’m unorthodox yet staid
I’m different and I blend into the crowd
I’m just…me